Awakening Pt. 02

Walking out of the bar into the cold air, I felt a little stupid. Had I really just walked out all because Dylan was talking to some girl? The fresh air cleared my thoughts and I was now definitely rethinking my abrupt departure. I could have spent a little more time trying to wrap my head around whatever this thing was with Dylan.

The more I walked the more I pondered what exactly it was I wanted. The answer was that I had no idea. I was definitely very attracted to her and my body was clearly responding to that but could I really imagine myself in bed with a woman? Touching her, having her touch me? How different could it really be? Pretty different I decided. For one thing I didn't really know how to please a woman, obviously I could get myself off but doing it to someone else seemed different. Guys were so much easier, no messing around, if he's hard he wants you. You can pretty much treat all dicks the same and get a good outcome. But women? More complicated for sure. That was well evidenced in the varying experiences I'd had with the men who'd been in my life.

A short train ride later and I was opening the door to my flat.

"Hey stranger" Jess exclaimed as I flopped down on the couch.

"Hey, flying solo tonight?" I asked, thinking about the potential need to utilize my earphones again.

"Yep, Jason just left. Gotta give the poor guy a break" she winked at me.

Jess has been my best friend for years, we'd originally met through mutual friends when we'd both moved to the city. Not really knowing too many people we had naturally gravitated towards each other. She was my confidant, biggest cheerleader and I regarded her as family.

"Speaking of flying solo, Jason has a really cute friend..." Jess started.

"Oh right" I started but my thoughts immediately flew to Dylan.

Jess started babbling about some guy called Nick who apparently was cute and funny and smart and didn't I think it was time I got back out there.

"I dunno Jess" I began, shaking my head slightly.

"Babe, it's been 2 months since your break up."

"Yeah I know, it's not that..", I blushed and looked away from her when she raised her eyebrows at me. As I turned to look back I felt a pillow hit my face that Jess had just launched at me.

"You shit! You've been holding out on me!" she exclaimed. "Spill".

I blushed deeper as a small smile played on my lips.

"It's nothing" I said.

"Like hell Jo Andrews, you never crush on anyone!", "Who is he?"

My stomach dropped slightly at "he" but I didn't correct her.

"Just someone I met at work" I said evasively.

"A hot someone? What's his name?"

"Dylan", Thank god for gender neutral names I thought to myself. "Very hot".

"Do you think he's interested?" Jess' interest was clearly piqued.

"I have no idea, We've only just met" I answered, again careful to avoid pronouns but Jess didn't notice.

"What's his surname?" Jess asked, whipping out her phone to log onto social media.

Shit. "Oh he's not online, don't bother" I said quickly.

"Not online? Who's not online in this day and age?"

I shrugged at her non-committally.

"Well I think it's definitely time you go out there"

"Oh yeah?" I smirked at her.

"Definitely. Have some fun girl, you work too hard."

I rolled my eyes at her.

"So are you gonna make a move or what?" She pushed, not letting the issue drop.

"No! I don't even know how to make a move" I blurted out.

Now it was her turn to roll her eyes. "Flirt Jo. Show a little skin, be a little touchy. Jesus, drop your pen and bend over in front of him. Just do something"

"Their probably not even interested" I said looking down.

"Don't do that! How many times do I need to tell you, you're a babe! There's probably not a guy this side of the city that wouldn't want you naked in their bed!" She grabbed my hands to empathize her point.

"Ok fine, I'll try I guess" I said resignedly. It would make sense to at least test the waters to see if Dylan's interested. That way if not, I can put things behind me once and for all. If she was though...I guess I'd work that out when we got there.

"YES!" Jess yelled in triumph. "Go get him girl!"

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I woke up Monday morning after a restless night thinking about what my next "move" would be. Again, I was unusually attentive to my outfit choice, deciding on a fitted navy dress that finished about my knees and showed a hint of my cleavage at the neckline. I was applying the finishing touches of make up when Jess walked into the bathroom. She looked at me appraisingly before nodding her head.

"Wear your hair down" she instructed me. I removed my hair tie and let my hair fall free, settling again just above my breasts. "Perfect" she grinned with approval.

Sitting on the train a short time later I noticed I was getting some glances from the men on the train. Feeling a little buoyed that I did indeed look good, I walked into R