What My Ex Did To Me

What My Ex Did To MeMy ex and I were only were only together a year and of that she was away on job placement for about 7 months.She took to going to the gym almost straight away to occupy herself and keep fit. She was a size 14 with well toned muscular legs and bum and 34B boobs.One night we were on Skype together chatting and I asked her about how she's getting on at the gym. She replies saying it's great and that it was good to be doing squats and deadlifts etc again. Then tells me that she was hit on by a Pakistani guy. I shrug it off saying it's creepy to do in a gym. Bearing in mind the town she moved to has a large Asian community and large Mosque. A community which she happened to live right alongside.Over the next few weeks each time her going to the gym is brought up in conversation she tells me that yet another guy has hit on her at the gym. She makes it sound like an annoyance to her but it's increasingly making me more frustrated. I start saying things like "I bet they can't stop staring when you're doing your squats" and "Of course they hit on you I bet they love English girls". All of which she'd shrug off but still she'd mention each time that she was hit on.Not long after her telling me I start looking up interracial porn to relieve my frustration. Frustration that I couldn't be there to have sex with her and thinking of all those Asian guys hitting on her. Night after night I'd wank myself off to women and girls being fucked by brown and black guys.What made this even more worse was the fact that I felt I couldn't please her very well. It would take about half an hour of eating her out and fingering her for her to orgasm. This made me start to think that they were all faked. Also. When having sex there were a few times I didn't know if I'd penetrated her. I was far too small to please her that way too. She'd even bought herself a dildo to get herself off halfway through our relationship.Finally one night on a Skype call she finally admitted to me that she'd been seeing the guy who had first hit on her. Apparently she tried telling me before but could only say that she was being hit on. My jaw hit the floor and my face burned red. Her excuse was that we were too long distance and she craved company. She'd took him up on his offer after a week so she could be taken out for a nice meal. That's all she wanted it to be she said. He walked her home and apparently had started raining. Her excuse for inviting him in! She said she didn't know what happened next except being all over each other.Her next admission stung?She was horny from a lack of sex and me being too small to please her had caused it. This guys dick being far bigger than mine had given her the pleasure she was after.I felt so ashamed but had also gotten hard hearing it.My girlfriend had been fucking a Pakistani guy for the past month without me knowing and giving her what I couldn't. He was also a successful businessman with his own house and nice car. This guy had just swooped in on my gorgeous ex after watching her workout and got what he wanted. He took a white girl away from her boyfriend. In my mind while she was talking all I could think was that I bet he was fucking her every night.Even years later I live with the shame and has caused a few problems in my current relationship too...